This is a weird feeling, but I've been living with it for quite sometime now. Recently read an article in the times of india and realized I am indeed not an alien, not many but most of the indians today are facing this problem. So what's it, sounds quite strange but we have somehow forgotten to enjoy, to feel oneself as a part of the society, we need a reason to be happy. And we won't celebrate because first, I need to accomplish that, finish this and a hell lot of worries. Our feelings now have more intricate relation with out work and desires. In here, people are willing to do overtime just to have some free time, employees want holidays, they need a break. But wait! No one's forcing you and you really don't have to do the extra work, it's your life have fun. Don't know if its our present lifestyle or we've lost something important as we matured. Now, will you have a good sleep depends on whether someone wishes you a good night …
When we were kids, there was never a second thought that the homework needs to be finished first, there was never a no when a friend asked for playing cricket. Time was never wasted having hours long gossips. Some would say grow up life's not the same as it used to be, you are no longer a kindergarten boy or a careless teenager, you'll have to make something for yourself, be responsible. And that's when I really get boiled up …
Shut up!!! I know what I've to do and I'll do it when I want to, just stop reminding me.
That's said, the question is do I actually have some plans for my future, do I know how im going to get the work finished by deadline. The point is most of us just can't get out of this situation, even if someone claims, still they have overburdened themselves with endless goals and desires. Most of us are will follow up what others are doing, follow up with the working protocol and you'll get somewhere . While many, including me finds this simply awkward how can you be doing something you can't get your heart into.
For a computer science student, there, are, always some nasty neurons signaling …
Hey! u've got to learn html5, and network programming and what about tweaking kernel and ircs and subversioning and get some good project and blah and blah!!! …
Well this never ends and I still haven't found a way to get out of it …
These are lines from Steve Jobs during an annual commencement speech at Stanford(2005) …
" Your time is limited. So don't waste it living someone else life. Don't be trapped by dogma, which is living with the results of other peoples thinking. Don't let the noise of others opinion drown out your own inner voice and most important have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become, everything else is secondary. "
It may seem that I am going of the hook now, but if we want to(not have to) end this endless quest of not doing something coz we already have a lot to do, we will have to create a bridge and the time is now...
